Miraculous Moment #6 - Chapter #3 of - The "First Miraculous Stages" of What Occurred in My Life - Prior to The Dragonfly's Arrival
- marynotme
- Jan 3
- 12 min read
Please Note That...
These Specific-Entries of My Written Spiritual-based Conversation...
Have Been Posted In "4" Separate Chapters -
And That This Posting Is Therefore - In Continuation From Where I'd left off....
A Moment Ago - In Chapter # 2 of -
Miraculous Moment # 6
Hello Again -
As I'd Mentioned a Moment Ago...
At The Closing of Chapter # 2 ...
My Friend Had Fortunately Replied -
That She Would Be More Than Happy to Help Me...
Run That - "One Last-Errand"... Before our Departure-Flight...
By Taking Me Over to - The Motor-Vehicle Driver's Licensing Department...
Since Doing So... Would Give Us a Chance...
To Get in One More Visit... While Traveling Together In "Their Car"...
Before My Husband and I Departed Tomorrow Afternoon... For The Southern W. Coast
Which Explains Why - It Would've Been... In About 1 Hour...
Following That -
"Spiritual-Request"
That I'm Now...
Standing at The Service-Counter... of the Local Motor-Vehicle Branch...
Handing-In... & Basically "Giving-Up"... My Driver's License...
Although It Was "Obviously"...
The - "Last Thing"... That I Was Wanting To Do... & Especially - On That Day...
Prior to Being Relocated to a "No Public Transport Available" District
The Next Emotional-Hurdle...
That I Can Still Clearly Recall Experiencing... During That Day's Events...
Was The Way In Which...
And By The Way...
I Realize That These Following Re-lived Moments... & "Emotional-Stages"...
Are Likely Something That -
You've Also Experienced... Both Through & During -
Your Own Personal & Stressful Scenarios...
As It Was... And Still Is...
A - Common Emotional-Occurrence... The Ways In Which -
I Was Suddenly... Now; Back During That Precise Moment... Being Reminded...
Of How -
Whenever A Person's Experiencing "Any Form" of -
"Mental-Stress" In Their Life...
That -
It Quite Often Affects - Their Personal-Life In Such A Way...
That - The Overall-Effects of It...
Will Usually Be Coming-Down Upon Them -
In A Multitude of -
"Separate Steps & Stages"
Just As I... For Example...
& Although I Knew - Long Beforehand - That This Day Was in Fact Eventually Coming...
As I Had Been (Vision-ally... & Spiritually) Forewarned of It... Nearly 2 Years Ago...
I Had Still However - "Emotionally-Reacted" -
"In a State of - Complete Shock - & Full Denial"
The Very Moment in Which - I Was Being -
"Lovingly Asked"
By My -
"Spiritual-Boss Upstairs"
To Do This Request For -
"Them"
Before I Depart on Flight... Tomorrow Afternoon...
Back - While I'd Stood Outside Our Apartment Building...
And at Which Point... I'd Looked Straight Upward... While Responding
"Oh NO... Not Now"
And Then Again - I Had "Also" Found It Really Hard - An Hour or so Later...
(&Yet - In a - "Different Emotional-Way" Though)
When I Had First Begun to - "Actually Enter" Into - The -
Motor-Vehicle Licensing Office...
As I Had Suddenly - RIGHT THEN...
Become - "EVEN MORE FULLY AWARE" of -
What Exactly... I Was - "IN FACT" - "About To Actually Loose"...
Or Basically The Transportation-Freedom That I Was - "In Fact" -
"About to Literally Give Up"
!!!!!!
And of Course...
The Domino-Events of That Day...
& The Undeniable "Reality" Behind My Having to Follow Through...
With Each One of - Those
"Spiritually-Instructed"
Steps...
Had Struck Me... Again...
& (Once-Again) a Little Bit Harder This Time...
!!!!!!
The Moment I'd Begun -
Stepping Out - of that - Driver's Registration & License Permit Building
With - an Actual Signed "Document" In My Hand...
That I Knew - Was - "Legally-Stating" on it - The "FACT" -
I Had Just Now - Voluntarily Given Up My Rite To Drive...
As I Currently Held In My Hands - an Actual-Document...
Of Non-deniable -"REALITY"
Concerning What I Was No Longer...
Legally-Aloud To Do - From That Moment Onward
And Yet...
The Emotional-Moment In Which... The Actual -
"REALITY-BRICK"
Had In Fact (Literally) "HIT ME" The Hardest That Day...
Was Just a Few Seconds After...
My Friend Had Dropped Me Back off - at Our Apartment Building...
of Which - My Husband & I Had Recently Sold...
And Were Going To Be Relocating Away From... Starting at 8am Tomorrow
!!!!!
As That Moment - Was in Fact - the Precise Reality-Flash - In Which...
I Had Suddenly Become - "Fully-Awakened"...
To The -
Factual "TRUTH"... of The Scenario That I Was Currently In...
AS IT HAD... RIGHT THEN... BECOME A -
100% REALITY-ISSUE!
That I -
"HAD TO"... "FROM NOW ON"... "WALK"...
To - WHEREVER... I WANTED... or NEEDED... TO GO!!!
or Basically - If I Had to Quickly Go & Purchase Anything from One of the Stores...
That're Located "Far-up" The Road - From Where I'm Currently Standing...
Before We Leave Tomorrow Afternoon
!!!!!!!
Because Yes...
I Still Had a Car...
Located Close By...
In the Underground Parking Lot of That Apartment Building...
"BUT"
I COULD "NO LONGER" Legally DRIVE IT...
!!!!!!!
And So... It Was... At That "Precise Moment"...
of My Being - Suddenly Struck...
By What I Had Felt Were - The Highest Level...
of BOTH -
"Truth" & "Reality"
of These - NEW (Non-Optional) TRANSPORTATION-LIMITATIONs In My Life
!!!!!!
That I Had... In Great-Haste... Decided...
To Try & Quickly Distance Myself...
From Both -
That Apartment Building...
As Well as - From Our Vehicle; That's Stored In This Underground-parking Garage
& Yet of Which - I Could No Longer Drive
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As I Seemed To Have (Foolishly) Assumed...
That - "IF" -
I Could - "In Fact"...
"Simply Physically-Distance Myself"...
From Both -
The Building & the Vehicle
That I Would "Also" Be Able To -
"Emotionally-Distance" Myself...
From All of - The Negative "Reality-Auras"...
That I Could Suddenly... Literally-Feel...
Were - At that Very Milla-Second...
Being Thrown - Directly Towards Me
!!!!!!!
Which Is Why - I'd Almost "Immediately"....
& Basically - While I Was "Still Watching" My Friend Drive Away...
Chosen To - Quickly Cross The Road...
So That I Would Be Able To Fleetingly... Begin To Fast-track... Via "Power-walk"...
Into & Through... All of The Nature Trails... Located In The Public Park...
Which is Situated Directly Across The Road... From Where I'm Currently Standing...
And Some of Which...
AS I HAD ALREADY MENTIONED...
Were the Same Nature-Trails... As Well As Lily Ponds...
Where I'd Previously Taken... a High Number of - My Blog "Nature Photos"...
Like The One Below... of The Baby Goose...
& - Like I'd Mentioned Earlier - The Set of Photos Used In The Posting...
Titled - "We All Need A Shoulder To Lean On"
& of Course -
Once I Began To - "Emotionally-Feel"...
That I'd Actually Become "Safely-Distanced"... Far Enough... Into That Park...
Where I Would Now... Be Able...
To Continue Walking Down-into & Then Along... Any of the Nature-Trails...
With That Apartment Building...
& The Negative Thoughts & Fears Attached To It...
No Longer In My "Visual Field"
!!!!!!!
& Also... Now - With The Sounds of The City-Traffic... No Longer Hearkening To Me;
& Thereby... In Its Noisy-Process... Reminding Me... of Something That -
I Was - "No Longer Legally-Permitted" To Do
!!!!!!!!!
My Overall Emotional-Being... Had Suddenly... Managed to -
"Actually Slow Down" -
Via Through Both Aspects of...
My "Physical" Walking-speed...
Along With -
My Mind's "Processing-effort"... of it -
Unsuccessfully Attempting to - "Really Quickly Answer"
"All At Once"
The Multitude Of -
"What Am I Going To Do Now"
Or -
"How Am I "Ever" Going To Be Able - To Function Properly... Anymore...
& Especially After Tomorrow... Once We Get On That Plane"
Questions
!!!!!!
Which Like I'd Mentioned - Had "All At Once"... Descended Upon Me -
As I'd Watched My Friend Drive Away...
Since That Was In Fact - The "Exact Moment" In Which...
My Personal Outlook... & Emotional-Perception...
On What I'd Be Both Living & Emotionally Dealing With... From This Day Forward...
Had Suddenly Become - Overtaken... & Basically Blurred...
Through a Multitude of - "All At Once"... Unanswered REALITY Based Questions...
!!!!!!
Now Of Course...
Some of My (Sigh) Emotional-Personality Features...
Helps to Explain Why -
It Had Come to Be...
That -
Once I'd Sufficiently Distanced Myself...
From Certain - Visual-Fields...
& Their - Accompanying-Sounds...
In Relation to - Everything That I Was Obviously -
Not Wanting...
To Either - Face...
Nor - Have To - Emotionally-Deal-With Right Now!
That - I Had Therefore - Also... Suddenly Managed...
To Actually... "Slow Myself Down" -
To a Way More - Steady & "Yet Still" a Power-Walking Pace
!!!!!!!!!!!
& at Which Moment -
I Had... Right Then - Decided...
That - "NOW"... Is - "OBVIOUSLY" - "The Best Time"
For Me...
To Actually Have -
A
Direct & Upfront
"One"
to -
"ONE"
Conversation
Meaning a - Open & Fully- Direct... Verbal-Discussion...
Between a "Mere Mortal" (such as myself)
& my -
"Spiritual-Boss... Upstairs"
Hence...
It Was - Just Shortly After... I Had Entered Far Enough Into...
A Separate Cross-over Section of That Park's Trail...
Where I Knew (For Sure) That Very Few People Ever Walked...
And Where I Could Clearly Tell... Right Away... That I Was Obviously...
Once Again... "All Alone"... At Least In the - "Mortal-sense" of That Phrase...
Here on This Completely Secluded Part of The Trail
!!!!!!!!!!!
That - I Had Abruptly...
Come To a "Complete Halt"
!!!!!!!!!!
& at Which Point -
That is - Once I'd Captured My Breath Again
I (Sigh) Basically Began Behaving -
Like a Pouting & Stubborn (Adult-sized) Child...
Whom Had Suddenly... Firmly Put Her Fast-Walking "Foot-Brakes" On...
In a Obviously - "Tantrum & Protesting" Mannerism...
Prior To Me... Attempting To Childishly "Verbally Rant-off"... To My -
"Spiritual Parenting Figure"
Concerning -
Exactly... How I Was Feeling - Right Now!
Because of - What I Had... Earlier on This Morning...
Back... While I Was Standing Outside Our Apartment Building...
Been-
"Spiritually Asked"
By -
"THEM"
For Me -
"TO GIVE UP"
For -
"THEM"
And So -
Yup...
There I Stood...
Looking Straight Upwards...
Like
As If -
I Would Actually Be Able... To Somehow See Clearly Into...
My -
"Spiritual-Parent's Eyes"
While I Rapidly Began... Emotionally Blurting "Straight Upwards" Towards -
"THEM"
The Following - "Pout-Sounding" Words -
"Hello"... "Up There"
!!!!!!!!
"I Hope -
You
Don't Mind...
But" -
"I REALLY Do... Need to - "Talk To" -
"YOU"
Right Now
!!!!!!
Although-
I Basically... Don't Know... What I Want To Say First...
Or... Where to Actually Begin
!!!!!...?????....!!!!!
Other Than -
I Just Hope That...
"YOU"
Are Happy... And Pleased...
That -
I Did Exactly What -
"YOU"
Had Asked Me To Do... This Morning...
And Went & Gave Up My Driver's License"
!!!!!!!!!
"BUT" -
Now That I Have Done That -
I Just... Need... ok Rephrased...
I Actually - "Want"... For -
"YOU"
To - "Also Know"...
That -
I - "Still Don't Understand"...
"WHY"...
I Had To Do It...
"In The First Place"!!???!!!
!!!!!!...??????...!!!!!!
And Especially -
How -
I Will "Ever" Be Able... To - "Somehow Be"...
Of Any Use... Anymore...
To -
"YOU"
Now That I Am Moving Really Far Away...
To a Place... Where I Won't Be Able...
To Actually "Get Out... & Go"... "Anywhere"...
So That I Can Somehow Meet & Help Others
!!!!!!!!
Since I Can - as of This Morning - No Longer Drive...
AND - I Know That - There's Currently... NO Public Busses... OR Taxi Service...
In That Really Remote Area - That We're Moving to
(Oh - by the way - there actually is a public transport service there "Now"...
BUT - There Still Wasn't Anything - Yet - Back Then)
!!!!!!!
I Now - Suddenly Paused... But - For Just a "Very Brief Moment" Though...
Before Resuming - My "One-way" - Upward-only - Conversation...
As I'm Suddenly Noticing - That I'm Likely Needing -
To Momentarily-Stop - & Re-fill These - "Emotionally Verbalizing-Lungs"...
Since - I've Actually - Vocally-Ranted off - "ALL" of My Compressed-Emotions -
In "Almost" - Just One - "Long Breath"
!!!!!!!!!!
& I Was Obviously Now... Resuming Our Conversation...
In More of a - "Calmer" & - "Way More" - "Civil-Adult" Mannerism...
As I - More-Slowly Now - Continued To "Prayer-Speak"...
Out-loud... These Closing Words -
"And so... Ok Then...
Sigh...
I Guess That... What I Am Basically Asking... Right Now... Is...
If -
"YOU"
Would Just Perhaps...
"Please"...
Somehow...
Show Me Some Sort of a Sign... or Perhaps - Send Me "Some Sort" of a -
"Spiritual-Based Message"
Which I'll "Know"... "Must" Be Coming -
Both - From & Through -
"YOU"
That Will Help Me To "Know"... For Sure...
& to Then - That Way... Also... Be Able To FULLY "Believe"...
That - I Have In Fact - "Actually Done"... What -
"YOU"
Have In Fact... Wanted Me To Do...
And... -
That I Still Have a - "Reason" & "Purpose" to - "Live"
And... for me to - "Not Give Into - Those Darkening Self-Worth Thoughts"
That I've Continuously - Had to Fight Off...
Ever Since I Lost Contact With That Important & Loved Person in My Life!
& of Which -
"You"
Have Always Helped Me To Continuously Overcome
!!!!!!
OH And -
Could...
"YOU"
Please Do This... For Me...
Before We Get On That Plane Tomorrow Afternoon
!!!!!!...?????...!!!!!!
I Briefly now, Paused... Before saying... As I Began To Walk Again -
And So...
Ok... I Guess That's It -
& So..
OK Then...
By For Now...
& Thanks Again... For Listening
Before Proceeding -
Please Note That - I Was "No Longer" a - "Amen" Type of a Person...
By That Time Period In My life
!!!!!!!!
Simply Because... I Would Never Say "Amen"
Whenever I'm Ending a - "Personal & Normal" - Verbal-Conversation
!!!!!!
& My - Spiritual-Based Conversations... & - Mortal-Spoken Discussions...
Between Myself
& My
"Maker"
Had - by That Point In My Life...
Become More of a - Very Personal-level... 2 Way Conversation...
Rather Than... One of The - "Traditional & Ritualistic-Prayer" Type -
Like What I Had Grown Up Practicing... Every Sunday...
Where a Person Is - "ALWAYS Following" a "Pre-Written-Prayer Script"
& So Now... That I Had Finished - "Voicing Off" -
"My Childish - Verbatim-Tantrum"
As Well As...
"A Slightly More Calmer... Adult-version of a - Verbalized-Question"
Directly Towards...
My -
"Spiritual Parent"... "Upstairs"
In Relation To Both -
My Logical-Questions, & also My - Inward Emotional-Needs...
& - "Both" of Which...
I Was Obviously Desperately Searching For -
Certain Really "Quick-Answers" To
!!!!!!!!
I'd Then...
Slowly... Bent My Head Back Downward...
While Focusing My Eyes... Once Again... Onto The Nature Trail Sidewalk
!!!!!!!
& While... Of Course... At The Very Same Moment That I Began To Walk...
Also Resuming... My "Habitual" Visually-Search...
For Perhaps... Just a Quick Glimpse... Of One Of -
"Our Creator's"
Natural Wonders
That Dwelled In The Tallgrass & Heavily Treed Areas... Close Beside These Trails
Like The Robin...
In The Next Photo Below...
Whom - I'd Noticed... Almost Right Away -
Was Silently Watching... All of The Variable-Sized & Multiple-Aged Humans...
As Each-one of Them - Hurriedly-Walked (Quite Closely in Fact)
Directly In Below Their Nest...
While They... The Robin - Just Quietly Sat There...
In "Their Self-made Mud & Stick Constructed Tree-Home"...
Which Had... Unlike The Human's Nesting-Ground... or Mortal-Constructed Homes...
Not Required Any Home-Safety Building-Inspection... Prior To them Living In It...
(Which Proves Who Is Actually The Smarter One... of The Two Species)
I Quickly Noticed - How They Were - "Secretly Observing"...
Each One Of - Those Rather "Strange Looking"...
"Two Legged & Non-Feathered" Animals...
Whom... Unlike Certain Species... Such As Themselves...
Were Evidently Unable To Fly
!!!!!!!
In Other Words... I Wouldn't Be Surprised...
If That Robin's (Visual & Observant) Concept...
Of What a - Human-being Actually Is... & What They're Capable of Doing...
Is Basically That -
The Humans Are More In Sync... With the Featherless Version...
Of The Robin's Long-Extinct Distant-Relative...
Known by Many Humans as - The "Dodo"
Whom... Like The Humans... Was Also Unable To Fly
!!!!!!
Which Explains Why - That Robin Was Likely Concluding... That -
The Human's Overall-Behavior...
Is Comparably-Closer... To The Physical Actions of - An Actual - "Dodo"
Than They (The Humans) Are... To Any "Current" - Bird-Brains
!!!!!!
Anyway...
The Point Is That -
It Was...
The Observation & Awareness Ability... of -
The Humans... Compared To the "Very Same Observant Abilities" of The Robin...
On That Particular Day...
Which Had Made Me Wonder...
As I Now Stopped For a Brief Moment to View Them More closely...
& As They Now Eyed-downward Towards Me... From Their Safe Treehouse Location...
If This Was In Fact... What Birds Would Refer To -
As Their "Hobby" of - "Human Watching"... From Their Home-view Location
& Then... Once I'd Resumed My Walk...
In Less than a Minute...
I Was Crossing Over... And Entering Into...
The Next Section of the Nature Trail...
Which Consisted of 2 Really Large Marsh Ponds...
And Was One Of My Favorite Sections of This Trail; Especially For Taking Photos...
Like The "Springtime" One Below
On That Particular Day Though...
& Rather Than Via The Regular Water-fowl
!!!!!!
I Had Instead...
Found Myself Stopping... This Time -
To Quietly View & Photo The Rabbit...
Whom I'd Noticed Was Lying Comfortably In The Tall Grass...
Located In a Small Section of the Pond's Outer Edge
& It Was... While I Was Standing There...
Eyeing Downward... Towards That "Obviously Relaxed" Rabbit...
And Then Taking a Few More Photos Of Them..
While at The Same Time Strongly Wishing...
That I Could Somehow... Be Able To Feel...
As - "Untroubled"
Or Perhaps as - NON "Emotionally Stressed"
As They (This Sun-basking Rabbit) "Obviously" Were... At This Very Moment
!!!!!!
That Suddenly - What Had Happened Next...
& All of Which I Will Soon Realize....
Is -
"Miraculously-Occurring"
Via in - NOT JUST a Really Quick... Nor IMMEDIATE...
Response To What I Had Asked My -
"Creator For"
Just a Brief Moment Ago
!!!!!!
BUT RATHER -
Everything That Will Soon Now - Begin to -
Suddenly Unfold - Right Here... on This Park Trail...
Is In Fact a - Spiritually-Founded -
"PRE-Prayer Response"
to that -
"Conversation-Prayer Request"
of Which I'd Had - Just a Brief Moment Ago...
When I Had Asked My -
"Spiritual-Boss Upstairs"
To Please Respond to My "Re-Assuring" Request ... As Soon As
"THEY"
Possible Can
!!!!!!!
As How Else ... Other than Via - a
"Miraculously-Founded Conclusion"
Can Anyone Ever Explain...
How it Had come to Be...
That -
End of - Chapter # 3 of the 4 Chapters
& To Be Continued In -
Miraculous Moment # 6 - Chapter 4
of -
"The First Set of Miraculous Stages" Concerning -
"What Occurred in My Life - Prior to The Dragonfly's Arrival"
Signed -
Mary Not Me
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