Miraculous Moment #1- Chapter #3 of - When "IT" First Called My Name

The Second Time,

In Which I'd - & "Beyond ANY Shadow of Doubt" -

"Heard my Name Being Called"

& Although I'd "Thought" - That I Was -

"Actually All Alone"

At That Particular Moment - In a 4-bed Hospital Room

The -

"Voice"

Was Extremely - "Louder & Way Clearer" Sounding - This Time

And yet-

Although I Have - "Once Again" -

"Obviously Heard" - My Name "Being Called",

For the 2nd Time;

& - With Way More Clarity!

Due to the "Fact" - that -

I'm Currently Able - to See Everything Situated in Front of Me -

Since I Hadn’t - "Fully Re-enclosed" - the Privacy-curtain,

When I'd Sat Myself Back Down on this Hospital Bed.

It Is "Also" - "Overly Obvious" to Me -

That this Room -

Is -

"Completely Vacant"

However -

& In Order to Remove "All Doubt" -

That a "Co-patient" Isn't Playing - Some Sort of a "Teasing-trick" on Me...

I Briskly Stood up - From Where I'm Seated on the Hospital Bed -

While Quickly Swinging the Privacy Curtain Completely Open...

So that I Can Be - "Absolutely Sure" - That "Nothing"

(At All)

Was Going to Be - Visually-Blocking - My -

"Entire View - of This Room"

& Thereby Enable Me to - "Clarify Even More So" - That I Am -

"IN FACT"

ALL ALONE

Following a Quick "Visual Confirmation" - That the "Entire Room" is -

"IN FACT EMPTY"

I Headed Towards - The Only Entrance Way - Into it...

While Vocalizing - Somewhat Loudly -

So That I Can Be - Absolutely Positive - That I'll Be "Clearly Heard" by -

“WHOEVER"

That Was,

That "Has Obviously Called-out My Name” - "Twice Now" -

“Who are You?”

“Where are You?”

“Quit Hiding from me!”

As I Neared the Hallway Entrance Door,

I Briefly Glanced Sideways -

(To my left, and through the open door)

Into the Small Bathroom; that's an attached part of this room.

& While - Thereby Confirming - That it's as Vacant as This Room OBVIOUSLY Is

Then - With Just 2 More Quick-steps - Past the Bathroom Entrance -

I’m Now Standing in the Entranceway...

Where I’m Able to - “Glance Clearly”

Down the Entire Hallway;

In "Both Directions"

To my Right,

The Bright Exit Sign,

Located Above the Emergency-exit Door - to the Stairwell

(& Situated One Room Down From Me)

Is the "Only Thing" - that Catches my Eyes - at This Moment.

As -

There's "Obviously"

No Form of - "Any Activity" - or "Movement"

or Basically - "Anyone Else"

In that Section of the ward!

To My Left,

I'm Able to See - "All the Way Down the Long Corridor"

To where I'd gone to make the pay-phone call earlier; to my Parents.

While Visually-Verifying That - Other than the People - Working at the Nurse's Station;

Which is Situated on the left side of the corridor.

Or Perhaps -

The Occasional Person...

Walking Through the Narrowing Visual Field,

At the Opposite (Distant-end) of this hallway; & where the pay phone is located.

There is Obviously - Nothing -

But "Silence" - in that "Entire Area"

Hence - I'm Suddenly - Beginning to Feel Like a - "Baffled Bird" -

Who's Just - "Standing There"

Looking "All Around" - From Where She's Currently Nesting -

In - Utter Bewilderment & Confusion -

As None of This Scenario is Making "Any Sense" to Her!

!!!!!!!!!!

And All of Which - Is Causing Me - to "Rather Confusingly" -

Just Stand There - While Once "Again" - Asking Myself -

& While Processing "Everything" in My Visual Field

“WHO”

Just Called My Name

????

As I know

“For Sure”

That I've Heard It -

& Especially - The “Second Time”!

?!?!?!?!?

Unfortunately Though -

As My - "Analytical Side"

Is "Obviously Unable" to Make -

Any -

“Logical Sense”

Out of

"This"

I Eventually Gave up - In Trying to Figure Out -

"WHO" Has - Called Out My Name

"Twice Now"

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While Slowly Turning - & -

In a - "Puzzlement-based Surrender"

Walking Back - Towards my Hospital Bed

From the Main Entrance Way Into this Room

Followed - Just a Few Seconds Later,

By the most -

“UNFORGETTABLE MOMENT IN MY LIFE”

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For That Was -

"The Miraculous Spiritual Moment"

In Which -

When I Was - Now Only -

About Two Steps Away - From the Side of My Bed

I Suddenly -

Once Again -

For the - “THIRD TIME” Now

Heard my Name Being Spoken!

However - This Time -

"THE VOICE"

is -

"INDESCRIBABLY DIFFERENT"

Than The Last Two Times - That I'd -

"Clearly Heard"

"IT"

For - "NOT ONLY" - Had I -

In a Vocal-Form of -

“IMMENSE CLARITY”

“Heard My Name Being Spoken”

For the "Third Time" now!

But - I Have Also -

Suddenly Realized -

That -

“Although” - Those Were in Fact -

“Spoken Words”

That Had an - "Actual" - “Sound” to -

"Them"!

And that - I Had Therefore - Clearly -

& Literally -

“Heard"

"Them”

Being "Spoken" to Me

For the “Third Time” now!

& - As Impossible - As it Would Seem to be - to Any Mortal!!!

I am - Suddenly Realizing - that -

There is Actually

“No Sound”

To - "The Words" - of Which -

I Have Clearly -

"Heard”

"Being Spoken"

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But... Then -

Let's be Logical Here Mary

!!!!

Because -

How Can Anyone - Actually -

“Hear Something”

Being Spoken to Them,

Via Through Words - That Carry - Utterly

“No Sound”

to

"THEM"

Mind You -

OF COURSE...

What Had Actually Made - The "Third Time"...

That I'd Clearly Heard - "My Name Being Called"

So -

“Miraculously Different"

Than the Previous "Two Times"

Was the "FACT" that -

Along

“With”

As well as - “Through”

The "Sound" of -

“THE VOICE”

That Actually Carries "No Sound" with -

"IT"

The

"SPOKEN WORDS"

This Time -

Came - With What I Could Only - "Best Describe" - as Being a -

"Miraculous Spiritual-Accompaniment"

That Carried - Both -

"Within" & "For"

"IT's"

"WORDS"

An Amazingly - Indescribable - Feeling -

of - A -

"Caring"

"SPIRIT's"

“PURELY-SOLIDIFIED - LOVING-WARMTH”

Via

"THAT"

of a -

“BRIGHTLY GLOWING - SPIRITUAL-LIGHT”

Which I Could - Literally-Feel - Was Suddenly -

“Bursting Open”

& While - at That Very Same Moment -

Fully "Enlightening" - the Currently "Dark-Sanctuaries" - Located in -

Every Knick & Crevice - in that of -

My Deeply "Fear-based" Mortal Mind, Heart & Soul

& it Was - Through -

"THIS"

Empowering-burst,

of -

(What I will,

In the years to follow this "Miraculous-Moment",

“Eventually” refer to as)

“Spiritual-enlightenment”

That Was Being

“Powerfully-intensified”

Right Here in This Hospital Room -

By the -

"Most Powerful"

Inward-feeling of -

“PURE LOVE

&

“UTTER PEACE”

& In Such a -

"MIRACULOUS WAY"

That No Mortal - Could Ever -

Be Able to Even - Somehow Fathom, or

Even - Slightly Grasp”,

Nor Even - Successfully Try to Partially - Imagine!

The

“Enlightening Experience”

Of which I am Currently -

“Trying”

(In what I feel is a - “Failed Attempt”)

To Somehow - Be Able to Describe to Them;

!?!?!?!?!?

For How Can I - Ever Put Into "Explanatory Words" - How -

“A POWERFULLY-LOVING SPIRIT”

Had "Suddenly"

And "Literally"

“MIRACULOUSLY REMOVED"

"ALL" of - The DEEPEST & DARKEST FEARS

FROM ME”

At that Very Same Moment - That -

"THEY"

Had - "Spiritually Told Me" -

Upon my - "Literally Hearing" - the Following Words -

(that carried "No Sound" as we know it - to them)

“Mary -

Be Not Afraid -

For You Are - "Never Alone" - For -

“I”

AM

Alway Watching Over You"

& - at Which Moment - I Had Instantly Known -

That -

"Not Only" - Was I -

"Never Going to Be Alone"

(& Which - as I Explained Earlier - Was My Greatest Fear At That Moment in My Life)

But -

That I Would - "Also" - Never be Able to,

Forget this -

Miraculous Moment

In My lifetime -

When I Had - Miraculously Become so -

Empowered & Blanketed -

By

"Pure Spiritual Love"

That -

“I Had Suddenly” -

&

“Peacefully"

(With Not a Single Suppressed Tear - Lingering Anywhere in Me)

Calmly Turned Myself Back Around - Towards the Entrance to the Room...

Where I - Then Peacefully - Exited & Walked Towards the Nursing Station.

Where I Then - Calmly - With Not Even a "Sliver of Fear" Dwelling in Me -

Asked the Nurse...

To Please Let My Dr Know That -

I'm “Wanting”

To Have the Tests Done,

For the - Experimental Epileptic Brain Surgery.

& That -

I Am - "No LONGER Afraid" - of Having it!

I Was - TRULY AMAZED!

Concerning How - I Had Suddenly Found Myself,

Speaking Those Words - to The Nurse -

With Such a - Empowering Feeling -

of -

PURE SPIRITUAL -

"LOVE, PEACE, & JOY”

Dwelling Now In me!

That I "Suddenly" - Wasn't Even - the Slightest Bit Afraid - to Say Them

Of course -

I Knew Right Then -

(without my being told)

That the "ONLY" Reason Why...

I Was - Suddenly Able - to Speak those Words so Calmly -

Was "Solely" Because - There was - "Now" -

Such a -

“Overly Powerful" - Amount - of Joyous -

"PURE SPIRITUAL LOVE"

Which

“Had - MIRACULOUSLY - Been Placed”,

Both - “IN” & “UPON" - My Moral-being,

By the -

"LOVING SPIRITUAL-HANDS"

Which Had - Not Only - Miraculously Touched Me -

But Had Also - Placed Me - Along With All of My Fears & Doubts - Into

"Their"

"Protective Palms"

& Which Explains "Why" - There Was - "Suddenly" - at That -

"Miraculous Moment"

In My Life -

"No Longer"

Any Space Left - in that of this Mere - "Mortal Shell" -

For Either - Doubt - Nor Especially "FEAR" -

To Be Able to - Live, Dwell, or Grow - Within it

And Which is Why - I Know - Without Any Doubt - That -

“Our Creator's Spiritual Love”

Was the - “Only Reason Why”,

This Moment in My Life;

Had Miraculously Come To Be!

(On April 21st 1977, - While I Was All Alone in That Hospital Room)

Simply Because - There is -

“No Possible Way”

That -

"Anything Else"

From that of a -

Psychologically-structured Subconscious-effect -

Caused by Either a - Medication - or a Natural Chemical-imbalance...

To That of - a Self-hypnotic Comforting-subconscious - Self-defence Behavior -

That has - Perhaps Been Brought on - or Triggered - By a Person’s Intense Fear,

In Relation to - Whatever Traumatic Event - They're Currently Facing in Their Life;

Could Have EVER Possibly -

COMPLETELY

"LIFTED & REMOVED" "ALL" of the "INTENSIFYING FEAR"

& the Overpowering - "ALONE FEELING" -

That Was Dwelling In Me - Prior to That

Miraculous Moment

In My Life

While I was "All Alone" (in a mortal sense of the term) in my bed

Unfortunately Though -

At that Particular Moment in my life;

I Didn’t Actually Know - "Yet"

(With Full & Solid Clarification)

What

“IT”

Was

That had Spoken to me - in that hospital room.

Or What -

“IT”

Actually -

“Might Be”

?????????

Or

“WHO”

I Will Eventually Learn,

“IT”

Actually

“IS”

???????????

& Therefore -

"WHAT" "IT"

or

"THEY"

Forever Shall Be

For - I Didn't Know Back Then -

Prior to - That Miraculous Day,

When I Was Crying - All Alone - in That Hospital Room!

WHAT -

"PURE SPIRITUAL-LOVE"

Actually -

"WAS"

or -

"IS"

or - Where -

"IT" "TRULY"

"COMES FROM"

As - ALL - THAT I KNEW - FOR SURE -

Both Prior to & Even -

FOLLOWING THAT MOMENT -

& All - That Had Actually Mattered - to Me Personally - on That Special Day,

Was the "FACT" That -

"ALL"

of My - Deepest Fears & Darkest Emotions - Had Miraculously Been Replaced - With -

"PURE SPIRITUAL LOVE"

Which, I Could Suddenly Feel, Had Taken Blessed-control of My Whole Being.

I WAS ALSO COMPLETELY UNAWARE

AT THAT MOMENT -

Back then - While Scared & Alone in a hospital room;

& Then Suddenly - No Longer Having - Any Fear - Either Dwelling or Growing in Me

That this -

MIRACULOUS EXPERIENCE

Was in Fact - Just the Beginning - of a Really Long -

"Spiritual-Journey"

Which -

"THEY"

My -

"Spiritual Guide"

Were Going to Be Taking Me on;

During the Next 47 Years - Following that Day; & up to - this Present Moment;

& of Course - During Whatever Tomorrow (of June of 2024) Holds in Store for me

And All of Which -

Is What I'm Wanting to Now - Begin to Share With Others Out There -

Through this Blog -

Via - My "SPIRITUAL-JOURNEY" Entries

Now That I -

Like That of - The Dragonfly -

& Which is What I Personally Use as My "Born Again" Symbol...

Am Able to - "Not Only" - Rise up From a "Mortal-based Inner-Darkness" -

That Was Caused & Fueled by my "Self-inflicted Fears" -

& of Which I'd Been Both - Living in & Dwelling With -

Prior to When - All of My Fears - Had Suddenly Been Taken From Me...

There in That Hospital Room

& All of Which - Have - Since That Moment - Been Continuously - Carried for Me -

During the Last 45 Years -

By my -

"Spiritual Guide"

& Sometimes - Even Through - & During - Difficult & Trying Moments in Which -

I've Only Maintained - a Mustard Seed of Spiritual-faith -

While

"THEY"

Have "Still" - Ongoingly Provided me With -

"THEIR"

"Spiritual Love"

&

"Miraculous Strength"

So That I can - Once again - Conquer Any Fears Before me

Before signing off - I would like for the reader to stop

And simply analyze for themselves;

What would have actually been - “Required”

To have taken place, during that particular moment in my life

of which I've just Finished sharing with you

For a person to actually be able,

To suddenly drastically change;

Both their emotionally state,

And their intensified levels of fears?

From a person -

Who was as afraid as I was,

At that moment in my life!!!!

To one who suddenly had no fear in her at all!

😊

And who then proceeded from that day forward -

After

“IT”

Had spoken to her -

To undergo the tests required for that experimental brain surgery,

And to never once regret her decision to do so.

And so - Until We Meet Again,

May You

(& Your Friends & Loved Ones)

Be as - Spiritually Blessed - in Your Life,

As I Have Been in Mine.

And May You as Well,

Always Know -

Just Like I Had Learnt That Day - in That Hospital Room -

That You Are -

NEVER ALONE For -

“THEIR LOVE”

Is Always With You

Just Like

"They" Have Always - Ongoingly - Been There For Me

Signed

Mary - Not Me

(The dragonfly lady)

at - whatisthenameofmyblog.com

PS - Before I Go - I Want You to Know That -

I Came to Learn - in the Near Future - Following the day -

That I Have Shared with you here; in these 3 chapters...

THAT -

That After My Being Disconnected from the Pay Phone Call with My Mother -

Due to the Seizure I Had While I Was Speaking to her...

That She Had Then Phoned the All of the Church "Prayer Chains" -

That She Knew of - Back Then ...

As Her & Her partner Currently Owned a Christian Bookstore -

During The Time Period That This Day Had Unfolded...

& - My Mother's Prayer-Request - to Each one of the Churches -

Was For Each One of Them - To Please Pray for Their Daughter -

And While doing so - to - Please Ask the

"God"

That They Prayed to -

To Somehow - Reach Out to Her (Me) & To Let Her Know -

That She is Not Alone in the Hospital -

Because -

"They"

Are in "FACT" With Her - Right Now -

& that -

"THEY" Will Always Be Watching Over Her...

And That She

"Doesn't Need to Be Afraid"

For -

"She is Never Alone"

I Will Eventually Come to Learn that -

The Event That I Have Shared With You Here In This Opening Entry

Would Have Actually Unfolded...

At The Very Same Time...

That All Those People - Were Praying-together for me -

And Which Was being Done - At The Very Same Moment When -

My Father Had - Following the phone call -

Retreated to His Office; in My Parent's Home -

Where He Had then - Prayed for Me in Private -

While - Writing Those Words onto that Envelope - That I shared with You

Coincidence - Um - You Tell Me -

For We Each Have - Our Own Way of Translating -

Both the Events that Unfold - & the Words Which we Hear -

& Besides - I am - As I Already Explained - Just a Mere Messenger

For

"My Spiritual Guide"

& So - What You do with - or How You Translate this Message - Is -

Completely up to You

Signed - Mary Not Me

at - whatisthenameofmyblog.com