Miraculous Moment #3 - Part 2 - of - When I Told My "Spiritual Boss" That I Don't Write Letters

Ok then... so... by our quickly getting back on track here...

Now that -

What I had claimed (in Miraculous Moment # 3 - Part 1) would be -

A short and quick pretext explanation;

Although I had also forewarned you, that it might

(Quite Likely)

End up being a tad longer than what I had planned... or hoped for.

I will now proceed to share with you

An experience that took place between the Pastor, his wife, and I.

And then "hopefully" be able to quickly proceed,

To the basic point,

That I was wanting to make; in the first place;

In relation to this present conversation.

Which was - Simply the fact that -

As We Currently Lacked - Our Present Day, Advanced Technological-communication;

Back in the mid 1970s

That - Therefore -

Our Inability to "Somehow" - "Stay Connected" with one another,

After Being Relocated; to another district.

Would Cause Many of Our Cherished Relationships & Friendships -

To slowly Fade Away.

Until They Became - Just Long Ago "Memories" - of "What Use to Be" -

And Fading "Recollections" of the Friendships that - we "Used to Have"

Which is What Had Happened in this case...

As it Had Eventually Became,

Seven years,

Since I had Actually Communicated with the Pastor & His Wife!

How ever -

Although it had been years, since we had last communicated;

They were still often in my thoughts;

And often part of - My conversations of gratitude.

That were being done on a regular bases

Between My -

“Spiritual Boss”

& I

During those 7 years that we

(the pastor and his wife & I)

Had eventually lost all communication.

& Yet

Although I would -

Still continually be asking my

“Spiritual Guide”

During my prayer-conversations;

To please take care of that pastor and his family;

While they traveled (and continued being relocated) amongst the different churches.

I was definitely not ready for -

(in fact I was - “Quite Far From” my "Ever" being ready for)

The day when -

Rather than me asking my

“Spiritual Guide”

To do -

What ever “I wanted” to have -

“THEM” Do;

For me!

Or for either that pastor and his family; or for anyone else for that matter.

To Suddenly -

On this particular day

Discover that - my

“Spiritual Guide”

Was now - “Instructing Me” concerning -

What

“THEY”

Wanted “Me”

(The mere mortal)

To do for that pastor!

Because - Nope,

I obviously didn’t like it,

When the table of

Spiritually-directed requests;

Was suddenly - Now being turned on me!!!

And especially when it came down to -

“What Exactly”

It was - that - my

“Spiritual Guide”

Was now “Asking” me.

“To get Busy, and Start Doing”

Anyway... The point Here - is that -

Our

"Spiritual conversation"

That I could "Silently-Hear" going back and forth,

Between the two of us, on that particular day -

Had gone "Somewhat" as follows -

Spiritual Guide -

"Mary"

Me -

"Yes"

Spiritual Guide -

"You are to a write a letter to Pastor ----- & His Wife"

Me -

"Um - I'm Really Sorry,

As I do not want to imply that -

YOU

Are Mistaken... But -

YOU

Need to know that -

YOU

Have "Obviously" got the "Wrong Person" here -

Either that, or perhaps I just didn't hear -

YOU

Clearly!"

"Since I Don’t Ever... EVER... Write Letters!"

“Spiritual Guide”

“Yes Mary”

“I Am Speaking to You”

Me -

"Well Then... I am Really Sorry to say this,

BUT -

"YOU"

Are Simply going to have to find somebody else for this task!"

"Because, like I said -

I Won't Ever - EVER - Write Any Letter....to Anybody"

Followed next by the -

SPIRITUALLY SPOKEN WORDS - "Yes Mary” -

"You WILL"

"Write a Letter to Pastor-----"

Me -

“Uh Nope” …

"Like I Said a moment ago"

"I Won't do that"....

"Because like I told -

YOU

Before"...

"I Simply Don't - & Won't - Write Any Letters - to Anybody!”

“I Never Have Before”

“And I Am Not About to Start Now!!!”

"And so -

YOU

Have Obviously got the - “Wrong Person” here!"

"Because I KNOW - for a FACT...

That since I don’t write "ANY" letters...

That I simply won't...

Ever write "EVEN JUST ONE" letter!!!!

To Any Pastor!!!

My

"SPIRITUAL BOSS"

Then - Replied, back this time with -

“MARY" -

"YOU WILL"

"WRITE A LETTER"

"JUST AS -

"I"

"HAVE ASKED YOU TO DO"

(Now you…the visual-reader….

Might have noticed on those previous 6 lines,

The fact that - My

“BOSS UPSTAIRS”

Can Obviously - “Spiritually-talk” way

(Way, WAYYYYYY)

LOUDER!

That I can; silently-mortally-prayer thought-respond, to whatever I am being told;

Through my basically Prayingly-thinking of the words,

Concerning Whatever - I am Silently-saying in my Spoken-thoughts to My -

“SPIRITUAL GUIDE”

During a Spiritual-based Silent Prayer-conversation

And so ….Hence the reason why - My

SPIRITUAL BOSS UPSTAIRS

Had SUDDENLY Managed to make -

“THEIR”

Point,

In that last SILENT sentence;

VERY CLEAR TO ME!

“WITHOUT THERE PERHAPS BEING - “ANY CHANCE”

WHAT SO EVER !!!!

of -

My having Any -

“MISINTERPRETATION”

Concerning what - “EXACTLY”

“THEY” Have CLEARLY - "Told" (& Hence "Not Asked") me,

That I - “MUST DO”!

And hence -

I therefore,

Simply Due to - the Aura POWERFULNESS of the -

SPIRITUAL VOICE

That had spoken to me at that Very Moment;

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suddenly Knew,

Without a Sliver of Doubt - that -

It Didn't "Actually Matter"

Whether or Not

I actually "Wanted" to - Write a Letter...

Or if I even "Thought, or Believed,

That I was Incapable of Doing the task"

As the only thing that TRULY Mattered - Right Then.

Was that I was to make sure that I did -

EXACTLY WHAT - My

"SPIRITUAL BOSS"

Has Clearly "TOLD" (and Hence Basically Not Just "Asked") me to do...

With a quick "Amen" - Now Being the Only - Responsive Sound -

Coming From my side of the current discussion!

And hence the reason why -

I was Now responding back to

“THEM”

Through my next Silent-Prayer-Reply -

With -

"Um…OK...ok"

"Fine then!"

"Yes - I Will - OBVIOUSLY - Write a Letter… Just as -

YOU

Have CLEARLY asked me to do"

With the “Thought-words”

(& hence these words are - “Not Prayer-words”,

As I’m saying these words now to - "Just Myself")

of - “%@#%(&#@!... And of course... *&^%#$%@!”

Followed by a Really Soft -

"Mumble, Mumble, Mumble" of Thought-sounds…

Rambling off - In the far-back of my head.

And of course,

With each “Silently-Thought-Word” context,

(and again they are therefore not - prayer-conversation reply-words)

Quickly going through my mind!

I began to think of (and blonde process)

What I'm Evidently - Having to "Non-Opintionally" do; Right Now!

Which Unfortunately is -

Write!!! a - &^%$#@! Letter Mary...

“RIGHT”... !!!... Yes! - I Am OBVIOUSLY Going to #$^&&^^%@# ... "WRITE"

Followed then by my - Really Childishly now, giving my -

“SPIRITUAL PARENT”

My - “Mortal-pouting”…“Prayer-Thoughts”- of Utter-Silence

Now please note that - When I said - “Mortal-pouting thoughts of Utter Silence”

That what I’m actually trying to explain to you (the reader) on that particular line;

Is the fact that -

I was replying

To - My

“SPIRITUAL BOSS”

With a - “YES” response - to

"THEIR"

Recent Request

But that - as my heels, were still firmly in the ground;

I was ALSO - Now Silently - “Prayingly-saying” - Directly to

“THEM”

"OK Then”… “FINEEEEEEEEEE”

I Will Write a Letter!

While at the same time - Silently “Thought-saying” to myself -

“OK” - “Yes” - “I will do, as -

“THEY”

Have Asked Me to do!”

“And therefore write a &^%$#@$^@ letter.”… For -

"THEM"

But not because I “Want To” write it !!!!! …Nopem!!!

Which is why –

When I look back at this (long ago) moment in life;

(As I would have been, only around 23 years old at the time)

I Suddenly Realize that -

I Was Actually -

In the habit of silently - “Poutingly-spiritually-talking” to my

“Spiritual Parent”

In just about the same "Pouting-manner",

As I would “Occasionally”

(And now, please note, that the word “Occasionally” means – “Not” all the time)

Be - Verbally Talking-back (vocally out loud) to my - “Mortal Parent”

If I was being asked to do something,

That I Obviously - Didn’t want to do… Like for example “Certain Farm Chores”.

My mortal Parents though,

Had a much harder time with me; of course!

Than my -

"SPIRITUAL PARENT”

Ever did!

As Mortal-voices could Never sound as -

INTENSIFYING or as Powerful... as that of the -

Spiritually-Spoken-Voice-Volume...

Which - my

“Spiritual Parent”

Would Perhaps Suddenly, be

Sacredly-Sounding

Like; When Ever,

or - if Ever,

I Had Foolishly Insisted,

On Defying,

And Thereby Refusing to do,

Whatever I'd -

“Really Clearly Been Spiritually-told”

by -

“THEM”

& Especially - Whenever I'm Being Spoken to -

For the Second, or Even 3rd Time Now;

Like for example -

What had Just Happened a Brief Moment Ago Today….

When I Was Being "TOLD" -

"OVER & OVER" - "Again" -

That I am - IN FACT - Going to Write a Letter…

Anyway, because my -

“Spiritual Guide”

Had Obviously Made -

THEIR

Spiritually-spoken words,

Very clear to me in that last sentence!

I knew My Being Asked - to write that letter - Was in Fact,

Not Just a -

“OPTIONAL SPIRITUAL REQUEST”

And hence -

I was Now Responding With -

“OK …OK”

“I WILL DO AS -

"YOU"

SAID

“& - Write a Letter"

Accompanied by the - Mumble, mumble, mumble, thoughts of -

Although I Truly Hate writing *&$#$%^&* letters

And hence,

Our - "Spiritual-conversation"

Had then

(Now that I know for sure, that this is not a quote -"Optional Request")

“Continued” on with -

Me Saying -

“OK,

I have a pen and paper here,

To write a letter with,

Just like -

YOU

Want me to do…

BUT - I Still Have No Idea,

AT ALL!!!

What I should to say to Either - that Pastor or His Wife???"

"In Fact -

I Don’t Even Know Where,

Or How,

To Somehow "Start" this Letter, As we Haven't Touched Base - For So Long Now!"

"And So - Would

YOU

Please, Help me Out Here… OK"

As I Obviously Need” -

“YOU”

To Somehow Tell Me - What Exactly -

“YOU”

Want me to Write in this letter;

Since I am actually doing it for -

“YOU”

In the first place.

My

SPIRITUAL GUIDE

Then said -

"You are to tell them in the letter,

What they have done for you in your life;

And also in the life of other people, that they have Never Met.

Although they have not continued keeping in touch with you"

And so hence - I Found myself writing down on that piece of paper

Something like this -

Dear Pastor -----

Although it has been a long time since the two of us,

Had last spoken to one another.

I am feeling a

"Calling"

Right Now,

To write this letter to you.

So that I might perhaps, somehow be able,

To let you know,

About the difference that you have made in another person’s life.

As I am assuming (while I write this) that with your job being that,

Of a “Floating Pastor”,

Who is therefore always on the move,

While being relocated to yet another church;

Where you are being asked to fill in, for their regular pastor;

While they are either away, or currently off on sabbatical.

That you must often wonder

If any of your years of ministry,

Have in fact,

Made any difference in another person’s life.

And hence that is the reason why, I am wanting to let you know right now;

What your coming to see me,

While I was in the hospital; and being tested for the brain surgery - has resulted in.

During the years that had followed your visit with me; on that particular day.

Because it was - Because of your visit with me that day; in that hospital.

That I had actually begun going to church.

And had then, in the process, come to learn more about -

"Our Heavenly Creator"

And that - It is because of the positive differences,

That the church has made in my life;

That other people I know, have also started to attend church;

And have then also, come to believe,

Through the fellowship and teachings of a church,

That there is in fact a -

Mighty Power

Out There,

That is watching over all of us.

So I find that - What has happened right now -

Is that - I Truly Believe - that I am Being

ASKED

by our -

"LOVING CREATOR"

To let You Know -

That because of the “little mustard seed” that you had planted with me that day;

That many other seeds, have been planted since then.

Simply because - of what you did that day, for me.

In other words –

Please don’t ever think, That your time on this earth has been wasted;

As it is just that, you have unfortunately never been able to see,

The end results of your work. And again, I am sending this message to you right now Because I feel a -

"Spiritual Calling"

That is -

"Telling me"

That you need to hear these words.

So please take care

And may God Bless you and your family

Signed Mary _____

After I had finished writing the letter,

And had placed it in an envelope; But with just the Pastor’s name on it. As I had no idea at the moment where they were residing.

I then walked down to the church;

That the Pastor had been working at, Years ago Now -

Back when I had first met them, that day in the hospital.

(While they had been filling in for this church’s regular pastor)

As it was actually located quite near to my present home.

I then explained to the receptionist there,

How I was wanting to get this letter out to him;

But that I had no idea where to send it.

They (the receptionist who was working there at the time) Told me not to worry about it;

As they would simply forward it on for me.

And so it was then -

After I had finished doing,

“Everything” that I had been instructed to do;

That a “Spiritual-Silence” was - “Once Again”

The Only Sound That I Heard,

From my -

SPIRITUAL BOSS

(at least for the time being)

During (Almost) the next two years, that had come to follow that day;

When I had left that letter, at the church office.

The fact that I had been - “Asked”, in the first place;

And had then actually, been - “Told” directly

By My -

Spiritual Boss

To write that letter; and then send it to that particular pastor.

Had never actually made any sense to me.

For all that I ever knew

(for sure)

At that particular time-period in my life -

Was the fact that -

I was a - high school drop out;

Due to my seizure frequency at the time

Who had been classified as being a - low IQ student, Back when I was a mere child, in grade six.

And so hence, I would periodically be asking myself -

Why on earth did My -

Spiritual Boss

Ever ask (or choose) a person like myself,

To send a letter,

To a pastor;

Rather than to have - “Logically” chosen - somebody else,

Who was clearly more suited for the job; than I was.

As all of the answers that I would reach, simply -

Never made any “LOGICAL” sense to me

But then again -

I had “Not Yet” learnt,

The fact that -

We mortals are apt to often discover;

During our lifetime on this planet.

That - “Logical Sense”

And -

“Spiritual-intuition”

Are often located on the total opposite sides, of the -

“What should I be doing, at any given moment in my life”

Pendulum;

That is continually-swinging those “What If” questions,

Back and forth in our thoughts, and daily plans...

Of which, we are often (unfortunately) trying to figure out; the answers to,

All on our own!

And it is often while we are sitting there,

Trying to figure out the answer,

To all of those -

“Why should I do that”

Or perhaps

“What should I do Now”

Questions?

That we are unfortunately,

Often - Only Able to Foresee,

(& Obviously this is because we are again, just - “mere mortals”)

The results that might ever come to be; From us doing any of those actions.

If they (the end results) are actually going to be showing themselves, to us;

In either the next few hours, or perhaps days,

From when we finally decide,

That we are in fact,

Going to proceed with them.

It says in the bible - as well as in the doctrine of Other religions -

That there is a

God

Which is able to see the future;

& that therefore, that means

That what I am continually referring to as Either - "IT"

or as my -

"SPIRITUAL GUIDE"

In my written (and verbal) conversations with others.

Knows, for a fact, what tomorrow holds in store for each one of us.

And yet -

I also know that there are many people, Who find that concept

(of there being EITHER a -

GOD

or in my Personal Scenario - a

SPIRITUAL GUIDE

That is able to foresee the future)

Hard to grasp.

However - I have also sometimes (quite often in fact) discovered -

That those very same type of people,

Who often can’t grasp that there is in -

FACT

a -

"SPIRITUAL GUIDE"

That can in fact - foresee the future -

Will often be the same people,

Who will really happily, and without a second thought,

Pay abundantly, to go and see what they call a -

"Mortal-psychic",

So that they can ask them - “What is going to be happening in my life tomorrow?”

And hence - I of course, can never make sense out of that?!?

Since how can one believe -

That a mortal-psychic can foresee the future;

& Yet not be able to grasp that -

A

Spiritual-power

That is Watching Over all of us -

Can in fact - do that very same thing!?!

Anyway, that

(psychic-power and foreseeing the future)

Is another topic in itself;

And so I won’t go down that avenue right now!

As the simple point that I am wanting to make today -

Is that I eventually discovered

After this event in my life

(Of my being told to write that letter) Had finally reached it’s - "Conclusive-ending".

The fact that, it is actually written,

Somewhere in the bible

That -

Our prayer are often being answered - Long before we have asked them

And I myself, eventually,

Personally came to realize,

Just how true that biblical passage is!

(& on more than just this one occasion, which I’m sharing with you today;

As this was only the first, of many more like this one, that are still to come)

In regards to this particular scenario - that I'm sharing with you today -

You Need to Know that -

It was almost two years after I had written that letter,

That I happened to bump into that pastor’s wife;

While I was out shopping one day.

And our conversation went somewhat like this –

Pastor’s wife - Mary

I am so glad to have bumped into you today,

As you have been on my mind a lot;

As I kept meaning to send you a - “Thank You Card”,

For the letter that you sent us; almost two years ago now.

Me - Yes I have thought of you folks often as well.

- How are you two doing?

Pastor’s wife - Oh.... you didn’t hear?

Me - Hear what?

Pastor’s wife - He passed away almost two years ago,

And that is why I have been so busy; for quite awhile now.

As I have been getting everything taken care of; with the paperwork.

While also trying, to get everything moved into my other home.

As I am going to be permanently living now, in the same town as our son;

Since I will no longer be needing to relocate.

Me - Oh… I am sorry to hear that,

And I'm sure a lot of people must truly miss him.

And I do hope he was able to pass-over peacefully

Pastor’s wife - Yes, we all miss him,

But we're also all thankful, that he did pass-over in peace.

But then...That is the actually reason why,

I kept meaning to send you, that thank you letter.

Because it was while he was in the hospital;

And his time here was coming to a close.

That I had told him, on that particular morning

That he didn’t need to worry about me, and that I would be OK;

As I had thought, at that moment,

That I was the reason why, he was fighting the inevitable;

And not allowing himself, to comfortably join

OUR MAKER

But then - He Began to explain to me,

That -

What was Actually Bothering him right then;

And the True Reason Why, he didn’t want to let go…not yet;

Was because -

Since he had always been a pastor,

Who was always filling in for somebody else;

This meant that we had never really stayed in any one place long enough,

For him to have been able, to ever see, the actual harvest of his work.

And so he told me on that very morning -

That he was fighting the inevitable, and trying to continue to hold on.

Because he Had Been -

"Basically Waiting & Silently Praying"

For -

"A Message or Sign - From God"

That would let him know,

Before he left this place;

That he had not wasted his time on this earth;

And that somebody out there,

Had actually turned their life over to "THEM"

Because of what he had done for

THEM

In his line of ministry work.

And so that was when we both,

(After he had explained to me, what his last wishes were)

Had held hands that morning,

And then prayed together -

That -

God

Would please - SOMEHOW - show him a sign,

And to please somehow, let him know, If his ministry work had in fact -

Actually ever helped bring somebody to “THEM”

And -

It was - Just Then - As our prayer had ended -

That a nurse came into his room,

And handed us your letter.

They said that it had Just Been dropped off,

At the nursing station desk,

A Moment Ago, for him.

I then opened your letter,

And read to him, what you had said.

And then,

It was just shortly,

After I had finished reading it to him. That he had closed his eyes with a smile on his face,

And Peacefully Passed Over!

I am going to end today’s conversation right here,

Simply because I cannot think of anything else to tell you About this moment in my life;

That you (as the reader-listener) would not be able to actually conclude on your own.

And Besides - I've Just Now Decided that -

The Next Spiritual-moment

That I'll be Sharing with You; Will be in Relation to the - VERY SAME - Topic as today's.

& so - I will perhaps give you, a more conclusive answer, At the end of the next chapter.

And so -

Until we meet again

May you be as “Spiritually-blessed” in your mortal life;

As I have been in mine. And may you come to understand As clearly, as I myself, have come to grasps with - in my lifetime; The Fact That - Prayers do in fact get answered (Perhaps not always as we want them to be, but yes, they do get answered)

Signed your written-message friend -

Mary Not Me

at - whatisthenameofmyblog.com